weve talked about this before, her coming here, to hsave her last child, she ended up keeping him, and never moving here.
in the turn of events, last december the state took him.
and shortly there after she went to jail, then prison..
and i wrote her almost every single week.
and in my letters i asked her to come here, to start new, to have a fresh start, to be away from everyone there, and begin again.
she said she would, and we talk almost every day on the phone.
i have the slightest doubt, the largest hope, but the doubt..it still lingers.
craig and i have talked about this to extent, and he fully supports me oing, even to the point of being with her for 3 months before we come back here.
hes ok with that.
i just dont know if i want to drive, waste all that time driving, and all that gas to get there to hear her say, she doesnt want to go, or makes up some excuse for why she wasnts to stay. id be pisse, nop doubt, but its her life.
would i still love her? of course, would i be mad? sure would be, but id get over it.
i dont want her to back out, to decide last minute she cant go, for some odd reasson, i dont know what would compell her to think shed NEED to stay...
when she can be here and start the life shes deserving of..
but she has free agency, and her own mind, and can at any time, decide to not come, heck, she can decide in the middle of coming to turn around and go back.
i just dont want her to waste my time.
but in the event she does follow through, i have looked up greyhound bus schedule to see the rates and routs, with transfers and all of that.
i speculate as to her final release, and it is contingent on her following rules and being allowed to go, of course, but october is the 9th month of her probation, and im guessing shed be allowed to go somewhere on the or near the nith, so i planned a week or 2 out from that daye, just in case. october 26th. i cant go get her, or have her come here with me on the weekend, becsause ill be working the haunted house for almost all those weekends.
tight schedule. leaving right behind a weekend to go get her, and coming back right before a weekend starts back up...ill take her with me to the haunt..lol shell get to see what i get to do there.
straight shot all through until i hit Tennessee...and have 2 transfers there...memphis and knoxville.
the con to taking the bus, no car when i do get there, id have to rely on her mode of transportation.
if i drive 9costs more) id be able to take my laptop, camera, stuff, because id have it all in my gar the entire time.
plus, i could take more of her stuff coming back. but gas is an issue, i figure it would be 300.00+ to drive, thats without food and drink along the way. not to mention 300.00 also to come back. 89.00 preticket sale, seems allot more reasonable, both ways. 89 there, 89 back. 165. if i buy it online with the web. and at the counter, almost 200.00.
have a while before i absolutely have to make this choice, but im one of those ppl who hates to wait to do this crap last minute.
ideally, id want to have craig drive us the 18 hours there, spend the night, turn around and come home.
it ould be hard, and hed be dead-dog tired..but..id feel better, and wed have done this together.
reality is, i may not be able to have him come, and id have to do this alone.
and im not liking that whole thing.
Michelle
in the turn of events, last december the state took him.
and shortly there after she went to jail, then prison..
and i wrote her almost every single week.
and in my letters i asked her to come here, to start new, to have a fresh start, to be away from everyone there, and begin again.
she said she would, and we talk almost every day on the phone.
i have the slightest doubt, the largest hope, but the doubt..it still lingers.
craig and i have talked about this to extent, and he fully supports me oing, even to the point of being with her for 3 months before we come back here.
hes ok with that.
i just dont know if i want to drive, waste all that time driving, and all that gas to get there to hear her say, she doesnt want to go, or makes up some excuse for why she wasnts to stay. id be pisse, nop doubt, but its her life.
would i still love her? of course, would i be mad? sure would be, but id get over it.
i dont want her to back out, to decide last minute she cant go, for some odd reasson, i dont know what would compell her to think shed NEED to stay...
when she can be here and start the life shes deserving of..
but she has free agency, and her own mind, and can at any time, decide to not come, heck, she can decide in the middle of coming to turn around and go back.
i just dont want her to waste my time.
but in the event she does follow through, i have looked up greyhound bus schedule to see the rates and routs, with transfers and all of that.
i speculate as to her final release, and it is contingent on her following rules and being allowed to go, of course, but october is the 9th month of her probation, and im guessing shed be allowed to go somewhere on the or near the nith, so i planned a week or 2 out from that daye, just in case. october 26th. i cant go get her, or have her come here with me on the weekend, becsause ill be working the haunted house for almost all those weekends.
tight schedule. leaving right behind a weekend to go get her, and coming back right before a weekend starts back up...ill take her with me to the haunt..lol shell get to see what i get to do there.
straight shot all through until i hit Tennessee...and have 2 transfers there...memphis and knoxville.
the con to taking the bus, no car when i do get there, id have to rely on her mode of transportation.
if i drive 9costs more) id be able to take my laptop, camera, stuff, because id have it all in my gar the entire time.
plus, i could take more of her stuff coming back. but gas is an issue, i figure it would be 300.00+ to drive, thats without food and drink along the way. not to mention 300.00 also to come back. 89.00 preticket sale, seems allot more reasonable, both ways. 89 there, 89 back. 165. if i buy it online with the web. and at the counter, almost 200.00.
have a while before i absolutely have to make this choice, but im one of those ppl who hates to wait to do this crap last minute.
ideally, id want to have craig drive us the 18 hours there, spend the night, turn around and come home.
it ould be hard, and hed be dead-dog tired..but..id feel better, and wed have done this together.
reality is, i may not be able to have him come, and id have to do this alone.
and im not liking that whole thing.
Michelle
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