chose to change her name on here, because i wanted to keep her privacy intact and not have her be inundated with hate messages from other.
for her privacy, and protection, i edited her name to be ONLY intitals.
why? because im better than that. thats why.
before anyone says this is private, once its in MY possession, its mine to use as i want to.
always be careful what you say to others online, you might find yourself blogged about.
i found this in my morning email.
what a way to start the day! lol
wasnt even worthy of a response back, directly to her, i believe it would have kept her upset and hatrred going, to be honest.
, because i dont have to fall prey to her attacks on me and i dont need to feed the hatred...but because she sent it to me i CAN talk about some things i wanted to point out here...
as she talks as if she knows me on some level.
as far as i can remember, we have NEVER spoken, im not even sure who she is, to be honest.
i want to touch on some things in this.
"You are an overweight waste of space who preys on other artists and finds
pleasure in cyber abuse"
1)- im 60 pounds lighter, still need to work on more, i grant her that, but that doesnt make me a waste of space. i believe, if you read her last lines of her statement, shes a Christian. i have issues with that, as well as i applaud that. i love the fact she is a Christian (if that be the case), but she is herself NOT being very Christlike with her statement of me being a waste of space.
any Christian knows that God loves everyone, Jesus died on the cross for EVERYONE..not just the 'perfect' ppl, or the ppl who THINK they are perfect. oh no..it includes everyone, ppl who are fat, thin, tall, short, white, black, murdered, rapists, child abusers, adulterers, compassionate ppl, gracious ppl, loving ppl, Christians, and..even ppl who DONT believe in any higher power..EVERYONE... no ones left out.
so, why, as a Christian would i be a waste of space? when EVERYONE has a value to God?
maybe im a waste of space to her, but then she needs to figure out why she feels that way, and reconcile with that. because were commanded, LC, to "Love thy neighbor as thyself". to, also "do unto others as youd have done unto yourself".
so, from your hate message to me im guessing youd like to be criticized, bullied, trashed, and mocked...because we give out exactly what we expect to give back...
unfortunately, im not that person for you..i WONT give back the same way...i dont think you deserve it, to be honest.
sure i dont like this message, i feel its a hate message, spewed with opinion, but i dont think you deserve the same in return. Why? because im not like that. im not rolling over, obviously, because im writing about this message, but i dont feel that you deserve my hatred and anger, and disappointment fed back to you.
plus, in all honesty, a message like this doesnt deserve the energy to reply back, because that FEEDS the issue for her...
and i dont do that.
i do agree with the fact she has every right to feel this way about me..
i do not have to agree with it...and i wont.
2)- "who preys on other artist"., now, im not really sure WHO the other 'artists" are in this..
ive made 2 customer dolls, working on...
a Vampling
a custom of a newborn
a couple of animals
a zombie x4
how can i PREY on other artists? im not even sure what thats supposed to mean, very..cryptic, and ppl only say enough to make their point without often clarifying anything to the receiver.
3)- "and finds pleasure in cyber abuse"
huh..shes one to talk, huh?
she comes on a site i NEVER use...ever, like seriously opened an account and have NEVER done anything on, and she chooses to use THAT account to send this message..
maybe shes sent it to other emails, i havnt looked at in a while...maybe i should go see, maybe theres more in those and i can make sense of this email..
to touch on the 'cyber abuse'..i dont think so, hence the reason i wont reply back..because it could be seen as such.
and this email doesnt dignify a reply directly to her anyway...
"You are a disgrace to our community and to the reborn world."
now THIS statement is what gives me some insight, she knows OF me, obviously doesnt KNOW ME on a personal level from the reborn doll making world.
heck, there has been some trouble with a few ppl in the dolly world recently, and ive been accused of taking sides on the issue, which i havnt...i cant, i can have an opinion, but i dont speak about it in the open with anyone..maybe LC is just one of these ppl in disguise. wouldnt surprise me, its the internet, anything is possible anymore.
and the attack, is reminiscent of one of the ppl who claimed i took sides...
and her venom would fester enough to speak to me in this way.
it seems awfully cowardly to use a site im never on, and to come to me in another name..just say it on Facebook, or someplace you know i am, and speak it there...but, by all means DO NOT be a coward about it. theres no justice served in hiding behind some web site...if you know me from "groups", which i can ONLY assume is Facebook, then why not talk to me there?
"My advice to you is to watch the movie ‘Old Boy' where you should find in that
exactly what you represent yourself as to others in every BAD and NEGATIVE way."
ya know? i have never watched that movie, not even sure what its about. to be honest.
i have to interject a thank you report right here..
MOM! if your out there and watching this moment in time as i walk through this, i want to thank you for the insight, and power within self, to recognize that when other speak in terms of negativity, and hatred towards others, its not the intended they are actually speaking about, its themselves!
and THIS statement, makes me think, perhaps she needs to review the movie herself...because shes exhibiting in this message EVERYTHING she claims i am, to me!
its true, when ppl speak about others (negative or positive) its because they see in themselves what they associate with the most.
so, all i can derive from her comment is that SHE...should watch the movie and shed find HERSELF represented to others in a very BAD and NEGATIVE way...
to be honest, she already has. and thats completely all on her. and thats sad.
be a better person...try to help ppl, dont push them down, maybe you could be the reason they succeed. you never know, but you wont unless you try, and you have to change the attitude to have it work.
"I have heard nothing but disgusting, horrible, and extremely immature things
come from your facebook groups."
well, the same can be said for your message to me, but ill touch on this as well..
i have NO control over others in a group. they will speak, and chatter and talk as they wish. i have no control over how they use their words... they will speak as they like.
i have no more control over them, than i do this lady.
and she obviously understands this.
if something happens and i dont see it right away to take care of it, maybe thats because i actually DO have a life, im married, have a son, attend church, do things for ppl all the time, have friends all over the place, and a life to maintain.
my advice to anyone in any group i run, or help co-run, if you dont like whats going on, leave. you have some power too, exercise that power. no ones stopping you.
no ones forcing you to stay where your not comfortable.
i know i wouldnt want to.
and i dont, if i feel squeezed out, i leave, no point in staying and feeling miserable.
*I* have the power over MY happiness, as anyone else does.
"You are nasty and hateful and people only befriend you so they do not fall
victim to your disgraceful ways."
im sure, that there are ppl out there that feel this way about me, im not sure WHY, because i think MOST ppl would say im very nice, kind, and considerate, i do have a point, a line, a measure of i go from kind, to stern if it is crossed.
and this kind of chatter just lends me to think that this individual has heard someone else speak and gleaned what she could off of that BIASED one-sided opinion of me, and NEVER came to me for my side (common) or has had to be dealt with in a group...perhaps kicked, for, oh say, abusing a member and saying rude things.
i have no way of knowing for sure...and in the reality of things, it doesnt matter.
ppl will hate. i cant stop that from happening.
and usually they hate ppl who are good. part of the program.
comes with the territory of life, if your a good person, youll have haters, look at Jesus..he was beloved, and his own ppl put him up to die...
"ppl only befriend you so they dont fall victim to your disgraceful ways"
well, ya know what they say, 'keep your friends close but your enemies closer.'
in this day and age, im not surprised, really.
if ppl feel they need me to be connected to keep tabs on me, im sure they find me boring...cause i am. lol
not allot of excitement in my life...well, till now..lol
have to thank LC for that..shes brought a smile to my face today..lol
in all seriousness, im enjoying her message. as confusing as it is to decipher, and pick apart..im cool with it.
"You must hate yourself inside and you deserve too."
another..self loathing statement ppl make when they reflect the insides they themselves see in others.
and such language from..a..Christian.
sad...because she shouldnt feel i deserve to loath myself, but should want to at least pray for me if she indeed feels this way about me, tell ya what LC, ill pray for you. maybe youll find some inner peace if i do that. its free, wont cost you anything. its a one size fits all kinda thing..so its always the right size, and God knows exactly what you need. and Hell make sure you get it.
"You have a sick addiction and there is a special place for you next to the
devil himself, fire red is your hair, and when you pass you belong with the
fire down there."
well i DO have an obsession...i happen to LOVE carbs, mostly potatoes...and i do, often obsess over them, in anyway, shape, or form i can get them in, and i know.it ISNT healthy...but i love them so much.
i love Primates, and i advocate for them to have a life free of human torchur and abuse.
i love the color yellow, cant see any bad thing about that, keeps me ane to be honest to see it.
i ador Bono )lead singer from the band U2)...love his singing. WITH his band, and even without as a solo singer. i cant get enough of him.
i love to look at reborn doll kits, i dream of owning some, i love them, as most reborn artists and collectors do...and i love them because i have an inner portrait artist dying to get out, my dream is to make customs of ppls babies...now gown adults, children as they are, infants as they are, even lost children and infants.
its been my dream since i was a child to make a custom portrait of someone and capture that essence is in them. and i found reborning as that avenue.
"sick addiction" ? maybe to some, it sa dream coming true for me, how many ppl can i make happy? how many ppl would LOVE to hold a doll and have that satisfaction of being able to cuddle something that resembles someone they have lost, or who has grown up and no longer in their lives in just that way?
its about making ppl happy.
and not everyone who ever gets a dol from me will be happy, and thats unfortunate, but i cant control what ppl do beyond the buying of a doll..how they receive the doll is on them, how they bond is also on them.
you couldnt hand me a spider and expect me to fall in love with it, i wouldnt seek said spider out anyway, but my point is, im not gonna love something i hate.
im not gonna love every dog i ever have either, i had an ex Boy Friend once get me a puppy to replace a dog that had passed away i loved dearly, i didnt bond with the dog..never even messed with it.
loving my art, by anyone is the same...
youll love it, or hate it, or...you think you do and realize when baby comes home you dont.
i have NO control over that.
i seriously doubt, ill go to hell..as you would infer i should, again, NO Christian would say such to another person. i dont recall Jesus ever saying such to others, even when he was mad at the temple..he never said a word to them about where HE felt they all needed to go, not even to the soldiers, as a matter of fact, he said to Our God.."forgive them Father, for they know not what they do"
im going to ask God the same for you LC.
i feel maybe this was sent in hate, and anger, and out of thought for something you have NEVER come to me about and discussed with me, not under this name anyway...
and who *I* am shouldnt make a difference to you in YOUR world, i have never done anything to you.
ive never spoken to you, sold you a doll, as far as i know your some random stranger online thats only heard about me.
and thats sad, if your following gossip.
some scriptures about gossip, and in general speaking badly about someone esle.
remember, all YOUR actions ar ebeing recorded as well.
make sure YOUR in line with our master and savior..
you might find out, when your at the gates of heaven, THIS very message kept you from entering in.
James 4:11 - God is the only true judge
Do
not speak against one another, brethren. He who speaks against a
brother, or judges his brother, speaks against the law, and judges the
law; but if you judge the law, you are not a doer of the law, but a
judge of it.
Ephesians 4:29 - Watch what you say
Let no
unwholesome word proceed from your mouth, but only such a word as is
good for edification according to the need of the moment, that it may
give grace to those who hear.
from one Christian to i assume another: have a blessed day, really, i mean it LC! May Gods favoring grace find you and shower you.
so, one of the ppl im connected to, who has had some recent issues with some ppl in the reborn world shared this article, with allot of her followers.
i have no problem with that at all, but i was surprised by one of her connections, a very well known, and extreemly talented reborn artist.
she basically dissed my post, no one asked her to go read it 1st of all...she opened that up all on her own. then, she dissed the whole thing saying it was suspicious that some randome individual would come on a site i never use and email me hate mail about me and the reborn community..
seriosuly, im not that difficult to find...google nativity4me, youll find me all over the net, so sure, some random person can come and make such hirrible statements to me, and to anyone. im simply and email, and a monitor away. whats to stop them? nothing.
i was going to post this other comment by this well known artist...but theres no point to it.
she simply hasnt a clue, because she didnt fully read the statement that was sent to me and never read my blog, she spoke out of turn.
since then, she has disconnected from me. oh well. her loss, cause i will go on without her, shes very good at her art, but i can do without her attitude.
on a seperate note i got another comment from someone completely different...
which was a support to me for how i responded to this person in the blog as a whole
this other person praised me for my working it in a way that reflected the values of Christ.
which was the intent.
and to make it clear, this was for myself more than for the world, altho the world could gleen something, if they wanted to from this blog post, it was for myself, more than anything, in the future ill have more hate mail, comes with the territory, and i dont know where ill be emotionally, spiritually, or even mentally when nit flies into my life...and ill ahve THIS blog to look back on and reflect at my power to overcome the criticism, potraid hatred, stone throwing, and abuse...but simply looking up and seeing Jesus there instead of the person who sent me the email, and replying back as if he himself spoke the words i wrote here.
theres a big change thats happened in me recently...
and thats what my blog writing is all about, and i hope i reflect tit well.
i am no where near perfect, im very IMPERFECT,but im also not one to go around and send hate mail to toehrs, for reasons, or none at all, and if i have an issue i look within myself first and try to reconcile my hurt and injured feelings, and then manage to respond ..in MY BLOG...the best way i can...
i may not do it as smoothly every time, i am human, but these words are a form of testimony to me about how i can take a situation and transform it for the better.
start with the self...and work your way outward, making sure you feed positivity to others and not negativity...